Timeline

It was a cold night I remember

As I walked home from class, right past my front door

With you on the phone, the other on my shoulder

It’s not right to lie, but I got stuck at class, it’s happened before

My gloves could barely keep my hands warm

And I don’t remember what you said, but it sounded promising

As I paced back and forth past my half-opened window

While the arguing from your end kept me persistent on listening

And when she said my name, you didn’t dismiss it

I was too young to be a grown up with you, it wasn’t the time

I brushed it off as yesterday’s dream, I had a life waiting inside

And that night, in my navy blue peacoat, we started a timeline

To Say

A cold breeze

Rain falling on my skin

I’m broken down

But feel okay

I’ll pretend to say

Couldn’t we run to Massachusetts?

What if we sail to far off islands?

Honey, can we drive into the desert?

But I’ll keep climbing these mountains instead

A cold sweat

Veins sneaking through my skin

It’s getting late

I’m wide-awake

I’ll dream to say

Couldn’t we run to Massachusetts?

What if we sail to far off islands?

Honey, can we drive into the desert?

But I’ll keep climbing these mountains instead

I’m no good at geography

So I’ll devote my time to irony

And want to say

Couldn’t we run to Massachusetts?

I’m a Dime a Dozen, You’re One in a Million

You’re the one everyone wants

But no one knows why

A complex soul, a little wrong

But always worth the time

Tell me your late night stories

I’ll pretend to be amused

But as each night invades my day

I’ll dream to fit those shoes

You’re a player

Can I play your game?

Don’t Invade My Dreams And Drive Past Me

Don’t disrupt my sleep

Don’t drive past my house

Cornering me into your life

Don’t make me miss you

Don’t shed a tear for me

Thinking that I make you feel alive

You fucked me up

I screwed you over

You can’t miss me

Don’t wait around

Don’t expect me back

But it’s in consideration

Don’t save yourself

Don’t do for me

I’m not your motivation

You screwed me up

I fucked you over

You can’t miss me

The Movies

Sitting and waiting

For the curtain to close

The film to rewind

To catch your rose

Hoping and wishing

For queens and kings

To captivate my soul

For storybook endings

Keep on living life like a movie

And plotting scenes in my scripted mind

But I’ll never make you see to what your blind

‘Cause I don’t live in a movie

Laughing and crying

Just when we’re told

The drama surrounding

We’ll watch it unfold

Sleeping and dreaming

Of what tomorrow brings

My story thus far

In the song that I sing

Keep on living life like a movie

And plotting scenes in my scripted mind

But I’ll never make you see to what your blind

‘Cause I don’t live in a movie

If movies were real

Then we’d dance in the dark

And we’d kiss in the rain

And you’d know how I feel

‘Cause you’d all feel the same

Keep on living life like a movie

And plotting scenes in my scripted mind

But I’ll never make you see to what your blind

‘Cause I don’t live in a movie

I’m not meant for the movies

WIthout You

It’s the smell of your sweatshirt

That lingers over my head

When no one’s around to distract me

The feel of your heart

Pulsing deep against the sheets

Was all I needed you to be

But I’m better without you

At least that’s what I keep telling myself

But if I’m so good without you

Why can’t I feel anything for anybody else?

It’s the feeling I get

When I drive past your house

The urge to turn up the driveway

I turn to check if your light’s on

Not that it matters much to me

Since I long gave that right away

But I’m better without you

At least that’s what I’m still telling myself

But if I’m so damn good without you

Why can’t I feel anything for anybody else?

Too late to go back

You’d ruin my plans

It’s so complicated

Even I can’t understand

But I’m better without you

I’m so good without you

I’ll keep telling myself

And hope for someone else

Stop It , Come On, You’re Not Making Sense Now

I’m not gonna eat

And I’m not gonna sleep

Until my words make sense

And my thoughts are complete

Too many pronouns

It’s like he said

I’ve no desire for filler

To leave my words for dead

I’ll make you cry

You hurt so bad

The truth will cut you

And heal the scars I had

I’m a liar

And I hate it

My pen was black

But now it faded

Trust

I couldn’t even tell you what I was thinking

As you sat across from me and I could feel you looking

I didn’t wake up that day with the intention

Of making you the only one who really knows me

From the first day I spent at your house

To the night I can’t take back, it’s too late now

And though I was unable to even speak the words

I know that you knew when I looked back at you

But what’s all this mean?

Why’d I wait for you to tell?

When I never thought I’d share my past

But maybe I’ve never trusted anyone before

Codependent

I don’t think I can do this

I’ve never driven that exit on my own

I’ll talk to reassure myself the whole way there

‘Cause she’s gone, I’m to do this on my own

And I don’t think that you’ll notice

That I can’t even talk to you face to face

Because it hurts too much to see the past

In your eyes, I see your pain; you lost this race

My car will be my shelter

My confessional for all my broken dreams

Protect me from the rain

With my words floating weightless, so it seems

The windows will fog

From the air so still

And my silent screams

Sleepless

Everything is slipping away from me
Sliding beneath my feet, out of my reach
Two weeks ago I was on top of the world
Living my life the way I finally should
But at night the world collides
And I don’t even know what I’m crying for
And I don’t even want what I was before
It’s an excuse I use when I’m all alone
Laying in bed with my hand near the phone
But the world is falling from my feet
Dropping from under me, I’ve been beat
This past year was the best I’ve had in so long
And now everything seems wrong
But at night the world abandons me
And I don’t know what I’m waiting for
Because I’m never gonna have what I adore
It’s an excuse I use when no one’s home
The one where my mind aimlessly roams
But this is why I let no one in
And this is why I will never win
And I just want to let you know